I experienced one of my life's most profound, prophetic dreams when I was five.
My sister and I played atop the grassy cellar mound, running down the slope chasing butterflies and lightning bugs. I don't remember seeing the cavern beneath the mound except when I walked into the cool, subterranean darkness via an unusually vivid dream.
The Dark Cellar Dream
In my dream, I held hands with a babysitter as we walked down the cracked and crumbly stairs between the cellar's mud-packed walls. I remember an earthy scent. Ahead of us was a dark, black pit that seemed bottomless. I was frightened, as each step took us closer to the unknown.
When we reached the bottom, light from a second staircase illuminated a round drain with holes in the lid, typical of a 1950s shower drain. The well-lit stairs on the other side of the drain rose toward a bright opening. The steps looked strong, unblemished, and were encrusted with sparkling gemstones--rubies, diamonds, emeralds, and sapphires. The babysitter gently urged me to hop over the drain and go up the bejeweled steps alone.
I glided up the stairs, over the gems, and emerged into a sunny day. I marveled at the deep blue sky and fluffy white clouds slowly floating toward me. I sensed the presence of God as I stepped into another unknown.
Interpretations
I have adopted various interpretations of the dream for decades. Although I didn't write it down in a dream journal when I was five, I often recited the details of my dream to myself and others. I realized this dream was spiritual and similar to my previous comforting dream of "Jesus" sailing away with the beasts of my nightmares.
By the time I was a teenager, I assumed the cellar dream was prophetic and that I would suffer through a painful life before finding joy. Would I lose a child? Or become homeless? Or perhaps sustain a catastrophic injury?
Except for an extended illness from which I have mostly recovered, there were no disasters in the first seven decades of my life. No periods of despair or depression. Even during health challenges, I was content because I had been touched by a healing love. (See Label: Diary of an Ambivalent Mystic.)
As I grew more open to spiritual experiences, such as past-life regression and Jewish, Christian, and Islamic mystical writings, I adopted a new interpretation saturated with symbolism:
The mud-packed, earthy cellar walls remind me that I was made from clay (Genesis 2:7). The crumbling steps warn us that we are entering a fragile situation, but I trust the one who holds my hand, a babysitter representing a spirit guide (or angel) of newborns. ("Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you..." Jeremiah 1:5.)
The cellar is like a dark womb. As we stand on the floor of the cellar, my guide urges me to cross over a shower drain, where most memories of my past lives will "go down the drain." A second staircase embedded with gemstones rises up to a bright opening. The jewels are gifts to the newborn, Cynthia, if she chooses to accept them:
- "the connection between heaven and earth, balance and regeneration, rebirth and transitions" (Diamonds)
- "vitality, courage, protection from negative energies" (Rubies)
- "Rebirth" (Emeralds)
- "Wisdom, truth" (Sapphires)**
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